What was I thinking???

One career I won't be seeking: Professional painter. Honestly, precision is not my thing. The taupe paint is very good to work with. The red? Oh, bad, bad, bad. Occasionally, I get a bad case of butterfingers, dropping stuff all the time. Not a good thing to do with a tray of red paint. Flipped it upside down today. #&$*@#(! All over the tile floor. Getting it off porcelain tile isn't too bad; the grout is another story all together. If anyone has an idea how to remove this crap off my grout, pls clue me in. Tile is great to have with house pets, but not so great if you drop stuff. I once dropped a bottle of red nail polish which broke and went everywhere. I was able to bleach most of it out of the grout. Not sure if it'll work for paint. Anyway, I am going to beg someone to paint the 2 red walls. I give up. Imagine what kind of mood I'm in. Hint: Not a good one.

And I was in a horrible, horrible mood the other day. I already know that not taking Zoloft for several days (or longer) is not a good idea. It's usually because I don't refill it soon enough. This time, however, it was my insurance company giving me grief. I can't refill at my pharmacy anymore. I'm forced to do mail order. Granted, it's cheaper that way, but not by much. Well, I didn't have a 3 month script for mail order, so I made an appointment to see my shrink. Yes, I go to one. You can't possibly be surprised. I asked Caremark if I could get one refill to hold me over until I got the mail order, but they said they can only permit 2 per year at the pharmacy. When I received my Caremark info this year, which never comes before the benefits start, I reviewed it and saw nothing about a 2 refill limit. The rep told me I could have my doc write the script differently (different mg) and it should go through. Did that, and it still was rejected. Now it's been a week since I had taken Zoloft (actually, the generic form). I already paid for a week out of pocket until I could get an appointment with my doctor. As I indicated before, my fuse was short. This short ....... No, more like .. When I called Caremark again, I promptly went off on the poor person who received my call. Very Christian-like of me. I warned her I was off my meds ahead of time. I asked (no, demanded) to speak to a manager, which did me no good. The manager did try to help, though. So I ended up purchasing 10 days worth this time and hopefully I'll get the order delivered before then. I try not to complain about insurance too much, because I know people who have no coverage. It must've been harmonic convergence, planet alignment, or something like that for me to lose it like that on the phone. Kidding.

I still have aches and pains. Makes it hard to do things without getting tired and sore. The hot flashes have increased. When I get one, it feels like I have a fever. I'm always turning ceiling fans off and on. Hot, cold, hot, cold. The bottom line is that I'm frustrated that I can't do everything I want to. It's not easy to acknowledge your limitations. Sigh.